Nothing is Perfect

I didn’t write for quite a while, maybe it is because I’ve been so busy with the new life chapter. It all begin when you find your soulmate. The one who makes you laugh when you’re sad, the one who reaches for your hand whenever you want to, the one who reads your mind, the one who wakes you up with light kisses on your forehead and the one who compliments you million times… and I can just keep going. Last year, as I was very skeptical, I’ve never thought these kinds of guys existed, or is it luck? I can truly say that you never know what life brings for you, but I do know how well I am accepting it.

I was always wondering what if… what if I find that perfect guy for me, what would happen then? Will I be happy like I want to? Happiness can also conquest fear. For the past couple days, I’ve been emotionally unbalanced, and I don’t know why. I’ve been dreaming about people I don’t want to encounter on my daily basis, I’ve been less concentrated at work and very unconscious to my surroundings. As I keep wondering why this is happening, I also manage to overcome my fears and live happy by being happy. I’m glad I can do it, but it is hard, sometimes I do want to have that emotional balance that some people have.

It is way harder to live in a perfect world than living within imbalanced feelings. If everything was perfect, I wouldn’t be able to accept change, create change and look out for new adventures. My boyfriend said:

"Every big change has its own positive and negatives, it is never perfect, because nothing is perfect".

As I hold to that statement, I also understand that we always need to look at the cup half full, because if we don’t things can fall apart emotionally. Today has been a better day because I’m so grateful for the things I have.